do you know this feeling? when your phone beeps because you got a new text and you hold breath for just a second longer anticipating what the message will say. when you have that little smile at the corner of your mouth when you read their name. when you smile at yourself in the mirror and think "someone is into this, me, wow". when you all of a sudden have an extra bounce to your step. when you shave your legs even if you don't have to. when you put on your good underwear, the sexy number that you save for that someone special. or maybe you suddenly find the rain romantic and imagine yourself caught out in the rain kissing like the scene from the notebook, man that was a romantic scene. or the birds are singing a song just to you like in snow white. or you've stopped listening to the drepressing music and have switched it out for something upbeat like, wonderful by adam ant. this feeling is intoxicating.
single ladies, when was the last time you wrote your name using his last name? do you remember doing this in 7th grade on your book cover? or writing it in your journal? i just recently went through old journals from middle & high school and was laughing out loud at how often my ''LOVE" changed; gordy, josh, rob, shawn, kent, phil, ryan, aaron....obviously it didn't take much! ha! it seemed like every couple of weeks i was madly in love with someone else and there was no reference as to why it changed or what happened with last weeks flavor. funny thing is these fellas probably never knew about my undying devotion (for that week), nor did i really have any boyfriends to speak of. i was just your typical teenage girl pining over the cute boy at the next desk or locker.
as a mid 30's woman, why does calling myself a woman make me feel like i am 85 with a cane? start again, as a mid 30's gal there are many times that a man will catch my eye. his smile, hair, physique, eyes, the words he uses, a laugh...really too many things to list that i get drawn to. oops, i got sidetracked thinking of someone i did have a thought and it is this, there are many things in life that will catch your eye..but only a few that will catch your heart...pursue those. i read that yesterday on my friend jen's facebook wall. this is so true. i find men attractive in many different ways, many different kinds of men, and to be honest lots of men, but there have only been a handful that speak to my heart. that i would consider worthy of pursuing. that i want to get to know better. that i share my hopes, dreams, loves, and dislikes with.
today i am intoxicated. i am filled with the warmth of love and excitement. there is a joy that is building from the inside and finds an exit through my smile. the rain is romantic. the birds are most definitely singing to me. i have an extra bounce in my step. i am wearing the "matching sets". and i even wrote my name using his last name, oh my gosh i am such a teenager, but i did. how long will it last? who knows a day, a week, a month, 6 months, a year, a lifetime? i don't know, i am along for the ride and will enjoy this feeling for as long it lasts.
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