not the movie i want to star in....

if someone wants to be a part of your life, they'll make an effort to be in it.  so don't bother reserving a space in your heart for someone who doesn't make an effort to stay.

i received this in a text from a really good friend of mine the other day.  it reminds of that movie "he's just not that into you"  anyone see that movie?  i watched it a couple of times.  i went through a phase when i first started living on my own, where i watched romantic comedy after romantic comedy.   i didn't watch this type of movie a whole lot when i was married, we usually watched an action film, so i was playing catch up.  instead of enjoying the movies, i got really depressed, often finding myself sobbing saying out loud, "i want that!"  after a handful of these romantic comedies i switched to documentaries.  for the record this wasn't any better, eye opening but often times just as depressing if not more depressing because it is real life. 

so during my time of self loathing i watched the named movie above a couple of times.  there are times when i watch a movie and want that romantic ending.  my knight in shining armor showing up on my doorstep to profess his undying love.  this movie is not one you would want to find yourself in.  it does end with the guy gets the girl and we are led to believe they live happily ever after, but she goes through a ton of shit to get there.  time and time again she puts herself out there only to not be the one for that guy. 

i feel her pain.  i have found myself in this movie scenario before.  talk about a blow to one's ego.  i am not saying i am all that and a bag of chips and everyone should love me.  i'm simply saying rejection or perceived rejection isn't fun.
so what am i really getting at?  well, i have a question, maybe it is a couple of questions, but i need to put it out here so i can really wrap my head around the answer.  how long should i keep the space in my heart available?  is it possible to really fill that space with something or someone else?  what if when i say enough is enough what i've been waiting for finally comes to fruition?