i was in a talent show. once. i repeat once. i was in 6th grade at Hillcrest Elementary in Lake Stevens, WA. i entered with my girlfriends and we did a dance routine. angie would remember the whole thing, what song, how we danced, really the whole thing. i have conveniently blocked that out. i know that we didn't win, but i am positive we had a good time and we did our best.
i am not a girl who likes to be the center of attention. i would NEVER sing karaoke even though i love to sing and let me tell you i sing all the time. i don't even think i am half bad at it, but how does one really know if they are a decent singer if they never sing to other people? the thought of all those eyes on me, critiquing my performance makes me want to projectile vomit. i could however be a "doo-wop" girl. in fact this would be my dream job...back up singer. i am an excellent support person but i never view myself as the front woman.
so this morning was talent show try outs at school. i have held off on letting my daughter enter for the past couple of years. i know this is really mean, but she always decides the week of that she wants to participate. i suppose i just don't want her to be disappointed or fail because she hasn't practiced. so last year she asked me a couple of weeks before try outs and we made a deal. at the time we lived in lk. stevens and try outs are in the morning before school and the logistics just didn't work to get her there for her to fully participate. the deal, she had to really watch the show and see what people are doing and then practice all during the summer and school year so she would be ready. she held up her end of the bargain which meant i had to too.
we had one little snag. NO MUSIC. first of all i am partly to blame i have no idea how to get the music she wants without the artist singing. i am a complete idiot when it comes to this kind of stuff. P had also forgotten that she was going to need the music. so we, P and myself, exchanged words about postponing until next week for the next try out day or just going ahead without the music. she chose no music she was ready.
anyway, the whole way to school she was practicing with her little brother singing right next to her. moments like these, when my kiddos are enjoying each other with no competition, warm my heart. i wish they were like this all the time, but then they wouldn't be normal siblings.
P ended up going first. she had to sing into a microphone which she had never done and sheepishly asked, "can i turn away to get started?" the judge a good friend of mine said, "yes, but you will have to face the crowd for the real show." so P turned around facing the wall and began to sing. she was fantastic! i was so incredibly proud of her bravery. these are the moments that i live for as a mother.
we still haven't heard whether she made the show, but we are working on music and she continues to sing. rock on P!
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