hello!
i've been on a writing hiatus, not sure if two months counts as a hiatus, but it feels like much longer. i haven't written anything. no journaling of any kind. no love notes. no hate mail. hardly any facebooking. i must admit that i miss it. i miss the creativity. i miss the clearing of my head. i miss the outlet. i miss sharing. it's funny how the very reasons i wanted to take a break are the very things i am missing in my life.
so what the heck have i been doing the past couple of months?
marathon update...i didn't do it. gasp! i really did give it a good go, but my body wasn't having any part of it. training was going well until about mile 10. yeah i know, not even half way, but let me explain. first off you should know i come to the table with the cards stacked against me; my hips naturally rotate out while my knees naturally rotate in. this natural deformity in my lower half puts a ton of strain on my joints. twice, i have had custom orthotics and somehow i have lost both rights, or maybe it is lefts, in any case i have two of the same foot. with that said, training was going well and then one day my luck ran out. everything was going great, my knees weren't bothering me, my breathing was fabulous, my butt wasn't jiggling as much as usual, the sun was out, i was making good time and flo was happy. i was on my way back (i had done an out and back instead of a loop run) flat pavement, no rocks, no twisting and my right hip started hurting, a sharp pain in the socket. i slowed down a bit and the pain started migrating down my leg. i slowed down even more. i slowed down so much i sat down on the pavement and started stretching. i ended up hobbling off the trail to my car. by the end of the night i wasn't able to put any pressure on my leg without yelping in pain. my children had a really hard time keeping a straight face, but i was in serious pain. i ended up going to the doc, where i got an answer that i wasn't really buying, but went with it. long story short, i tried running again a couple of weeks later and was still having major problems. at this point my ankles were killing me, felt like my bones were grinding each other. my knees were protesting with every stride. my right hip was screaming at me to stop. i was loaded up on a regimen of pain relievers and ice. i realized i had to make a decision; my choices were ruin my internal organs with pain relievers and hopefully be able to walk with a cane after the race or throwing away my ambitions of running an organized race and be able to walk without the use of a cane. i chose to walk without a cane. i'm only 39, i would like a few more years of parading around in ridiculous heels. i haven't completely given up my desire to run a marathon, i will definitely give it another go, however next time i will train at a much slower pace, work my way up to 26 miles and then go for a run one day.
dating...during my writing hiatus i was seeing someone. it was oddly strange to not share the details of my romantic life, but in the same sense it was nice to have that entanglement just between us. with every entanglement i learn something about myself. what did i learn recently? i am very set in my ways. since the beginning of my single journey i have feared this very thing. i have often wondered if i will become so set in my ways that i will have a hard time entertaining doing things differently. i now know that yes i will have a hard time entertaining doing things differently. some would call this stubbornness, but i would like to put a positive spin on it and call it being comfortable in my skin and knowing what i like. so there you have it yet another misadventure in dating, but i haven't given up hope. thankfully my girlfriends and their better halves don't mind having me as their token single friend.
home life...i recently had my home broken in to. this is a very unsettling thing to have happen. if this has happened to you, you will get it, if not maybe i can shed some light on it. i had come home from a weekend with the girls. my front door was locked, just as i had left it. i walked in and everything was just as i had left it, or so i thought. i went to plug in my phone, which i typically connect to my macbook to charge. so i walked over to the end table where my macbook lives and it wasn't there. hmmm... i looked at the other table where my tablet lives and that wasn't there either. i looked around the house and didn't see anything else out of place. i called my kids thinking they had been by over the weekend and moved things around or took them over to their dad's house, but they hadn't been there. at this point the only thing i noticed missing was the electronics. my mindset was "eh not a huge deal nobody was hurt and my house wasn't ransacked, it is just stuff". so i went out to dinner, but while i was at dinner i thought maybe i should check my jewelry. when i got home, i immediately checked my jewelry and sure enough it was all gone: my wedding ring, my grandma's jewelry, and all the other valuable jewelry i owned. now i was upset, those items are things i can't replace and they held sentimental value. i was up all night, i couldn't sleep a wink and i totally freaked myself out. it was super windy out that night and my front door rattled with every gust and the motion light kept coming on in the back. i sat on my couch looking from door to door like i was watching a tennis match. i called the authorities the next morning, gave my statement and have been waiting ever since. so far nothing has been recovered. the few days after the break in, i was really freaked out. it was so unsettling because it didn't appear that anyone had been there, so i kept wondering what else they had touched. did they get in my bed? i washed my sheets. did they look in my delicates drawer? i washed all that stuff too. at this point, life is back to normal minus some jewelry and computers. we are locked up a little tighter and i have successfully locked myself out a few times, but hey that just means so nobody else can get in either.
outside of those major things, life is pretty good; kids are back in school, soccer season is in full swing, and my life is comfortably structured and scheduled. i've been cooking a lot, getting in a little exercise, playing a lot of words with friends, reading, and making memories with my kids, family and friends. hopefully life is just as happy and cozy in your neck of the woods.
